outset.

luckily ifran not yet graduate from cfs, or else, i might be spending alone throughout this semester since i dun have much friends. besides, i rather being alone instead of spending my time with stranger, half stranger or anyone that i'm not closed to, which are everyone.

life turn up very very boring in short semester, 1st and 2nd semester was like dayyyysssss, 32 contact hour per weeek, any now, 10 hours, minus coumpter class, because madam azlena always missing so, its only around 6 hours per week. i thought by having ample time i might going to study, yet, i dun even consider to study, most of my time i spent choosing bed to lay my head off. woahh.. nilai tade air how the hell i can berak?

so, as i can conclude nilai always boring, plus i officially eradicate 2 friends from my frenlist, basically i'm only with ifran and kimi the animal. lain-lain in the class, library, walking far away make sure dun caught me smoking. he threw my rokok, but its a good thaing at least. some one is taking care good of me.

apart from it, somehow i already stop feeling rindu rindu like how i used to, perhaps its too long after i've told elle. and i hate both this people. fallacies. haha, apparently its all my fault. so yeah,, in order to make m heart less pain, i stop talking to both. i still bumped with fawwaz sometimes, only that, somehow i pretend i dun see u, and later u pretend u dun see me, and finally whenever we pass by, we dun even know each other. good, that's what i've been asking.

frankly u came to my room the other day, i dunno why.
and few weeks later u texted me to help u with ur english oral thaing,
sorry, i went back late because i don wanna help u anymore.
off many many times u have, by the time u need help baru carik?
apart from me, u have tons ur friends, already exempted english.

nthen i feel so bad rasa mcm nak rewind time and come back early.
i kan keling.

because that might be the last i hang out with u,
and i missed out the chance. u pun da bawak kereta.
apa barang nak lepak sini.

i was really glad i didnt met elle throughout short semester,
and suddelyyyyyyy dammmmmnnnnn she was in library with ifran doenk something,
and i cover my face, because i dun even want to see her anymore.
and im very glad, i dun have to meet u up anymore!
horayyy!!

i feel wanna for another apology, but tak payahlah. buat apa.

so, most of the time im all alone withn not even a single person beside me,
well that always happened during previous semester,
just, this semester the loneliness ; to unbearable.
its 3 weeks more. cant wait yaw!

so jijol nak cakap bye bye