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pondering over the same issue, and hopefully one day it ends with happy ending. hope so, and at this, my mind still empty for any subtle solution. and im still wonder what happened to me. egocentric, knock this down. will you?

anyway, im azizul and 18. currently bored with emptiness. im waiting to pursue my authentic education, inshallah 3 weeks from now. 3 weeks, what a long wait.

get to the issue.

i've been using this blog since i was form 4, because at that time, i used to want to be the greatest pujangga, yet, as time passes by, nahh, this no longer on my list.
therefore, i've changed this blog direction. i guess for now, to channel my emotion, and to write every event that i consider significant in my life. well, of course, something better left unsaid, but who knows, someone might want to study about me.
maybe, hehe, no knows what God have written for me.

nevertheless, for many years i've been writing, the most frequent issue, and obviously what im facing right now, which is- misunderstood. or i can say quarrel in a very diplomatic way. domestic without involving another party. because, even so this blog is an open blog, yet only few of my friends know about this blog. therefore, i can write and express everything either in a vert appropriate ways, or.. in a very offensive way.<-- unlike this

for years i've been writing, of course there very few posts that i like, that full of utter joy, yet, some of the posts, were really sad. sorrow, loneliness. and i just dun like it. nonetheless, i found all the "insignificant" post, eventually helping me to realize, im not gonna be happy for the rest of my life, thus, suck it all up. rather than, mengadu domba tak tentu pasalkan?

and, its about therapeutic at the same time. try this, u cant swear that person directly, so express it here. then only, after a while, find a suitable time. then talk nicely, indulge the guiltiness from the core of ur heart, cry out loud and say sorry for many many many many many many times. i know its wrong, but think about it, the sincerity will comes afterward. trust me. i did this before. it helps and it works.

yes, i've been a silent reader for few years back. after my mom decide to disconnect internet, its really hard for me to track back, and alhamdulillah, after i subscribe to maxis broadband, i can follow all the blogs that i used to read. and yes.. hihi i did bash someone using Anon. haish, tak baik tau. anyway, it was long time ago, and it was my classmate. someone that i know. jahat gila.

u know i like to read blog especially when it comes to experience. hehe, i like adult's blog. because, i think they dun made up stories. and, most of the stories written in avery decent way. even though, its a tragic episode of their life. eg, divorcement etc ect, what adults gonna face later one. and its scary. the way they handling seems very easy *ada jugak yang... i know perhaps some day, im gonna face it, *raising kids part paling seram. im gonna face it one day, and they teach me indirectly. cool kan dapat free lesson. and yes, they are very friendly.

so now, inshallah, this site will be the only site im gonna use *selagi kundrat ada. hehe.

till then. bye bye.