i wonder if only if possessing knowledge would only turn someone into pretentious.

classes have started and seriously, im still struggling to understand what the heck my lecturers are talking about. because, seriously, comprehending their words, *though not bombastic, still makes me confused the inner part of querying knowledge. to certain extend, i think most of my lecturers are being pretentious with level of education that they are possessing or, or maybe, with the knowledge they have eventually turn them into... pretentious.

its genuinely pretentious when my lecturers been repeating the same things, almost every classes. its either with the title she was struggling to have, or, the accent that she probably thought, the best accent in the world. to the point, its too.....
annoying.

sorry.

its a discussion on developing theories, from the very basic of thought from ancient civilization, into the recent theories came out from scholars contemporary thought. and, none of them are using the simplest term. most of the words are yet, very pretentious on indicating the thinker. u know, the kind of words, that only few people understand. its not hard, its annoying. or least, that i can political sc surprisingly the easiest subject so far. rather than communication and history. bahasa melayu, i wouldnt even want to discuss it. its not easy, yet, its confusing. imagine learning something that i used to learn many years ago. yet, the text book... the text book is a direct translation from english to malay. yes, english to malay. then, my lecturer required us, to speak malay. yet, when it comes to address her student... she use "i" and "u" rather than saya dan kamu. or maybe awak. that will do, to indicate bahasa melayu class. seriously, i dun get it.

im still coping with my new life. its not easy, in fact, its hard. im in the same class with different people, from different countries, different perspectives, and different in terms of lodsa of other things. yet, one thing in common. all of are sitting under one roof-to-strive-for-knowledge.

its cool huh?
anyway, im in the same class with post graduate student(master. hehee. sungguh cool.
oh wait tak cool pun.

yesterday, during poli sc class, heck, one of my class mate, i think forgotten to bath. and imagine the smell... i was laughing all the time, and i dun think i understand anything. or maybe.. he needs something that malaysian called "deodorant" to make ur ketiak oderless. damn, it was horrifying. i dun think the "producer" would even noticed it. and... god knows how terrible the smell.
and when my lecturer was giving examples, an Iranian stood up, and pointed out something that not even.. related to the topic we were discussing. haish, i wonder whether she really understand the discussion.

hmmm..

however, while everyone are having fun with their new bond and me? none. i dun make new friends. i dun even consider to make new friend. most of the time, i spent my time alone. occasionally, during lunch i've met friends. only sometimes. i dunno, i dun feel like starting new friends. even my roomates. i talk to them when its necessary. all of them are final year-laws students. they are nice. and im the only one, that been really cold. sadly, i know my roomate through the pants that he hooked on. i saw that very peculiar pants in the cafe, then only i've realised.. he is my roomate. pathetickan?



i re-branding my name. i never told them everyone called me jijol. thus, they call me azizul instead. so that, i know they are strangers . and i plan to keep it that way. i dun plan to keep them in long term. after all, i dun really trust anyone in my room. they are not bad.. its just. we dunno each other yet. and never will to know each other.i walk around the campus, most of the time alone. because, i dun like to wait for anyone. maybe because of nilai, makes me changed the view on having new friend.
hmmm..

anyway, im content with my new life. everything is ok. i need to cope with everything.

hopefully, this time, it would the most fantastic years and phase in my life.

bye!