be grateful yeah?

i didnt know how much had i grown up. nor i didnt really express explicitly on how much i grow older or maybe wiser.and i didnt even know, how much time left for me, to breath in this world.
and im seriously dun even know what's going on lately in my life.

my life is mundane.speaking about life, i've been living for the past 19 years,of course, there was up-side-down,life is an open ocean, no one knows what's insideeven a great fathom knowledgeable gay-greek philosopher ended up to be crazy,after realized the real meaning of life. guess, let's go with the flow? thus, i use this blog as an escapism-to run away from mundane life. and try to recall all those fantastic memories that,i never will forget. whether i like it or not, my life continuously flowing. until god have decided to pull me off.

let's start a new chapter right?

i've deleted my previous blog. something went wrong with that blog thereof, this blog will be my open diary.collecting all sort of stories that sternly left a mark. i wish i will remember till the rest of my life.

over the years spent meaningless with ridiculous workload, and other non-essential thought on how ungrateful am i. and, i know, those were the years where i spent in vain-meaningless i could say on how terrible i spent in the life that im living in. thus, i think, i need to change. i have no idea, what makes to accept all those changes, perhaps im ready. you know, the kinda changing start from terrible thought into blossomy-flowery thought. hehe? my life started when i came to university, or least that i can say, it was the starting point on how I am grateful to be in that peculiar place. especially surrounded with intellectuals, with common interest-to pursue for knowledge. and of course have fun.

i guess these people had alter my mind, for zero to something. something i couldnt describe through words. In terms, of expanding and continuously flowing conversation that sometimes turns out to be really sensual into the the metaphysical aspect. each one of us, soon to be the greatest mind. with of course need to polish *teheee*on the other side, these people have eventually open my mind, in terms of understanding all the possible solutions, with sincere advices and helps us me to understand world better. Epiphany for sure, with mind blowing exchanging thought.

of course, its against the norms, when something flowing flawlessly. there were up-side-down. betrayal, hatred, fight, and even misunderstanding. nonetheless, all the issues that stern to be grieve happened to be the most valuable lesson in life. right? and of course, above all the conflicts mentioned, eventually led me to this wonderful friends. that help to outgrow myself. i did, hold my grieve, over the years since i betrayed my friend. it almost facing a death person, even worse that death because happened to be, the one u loved lingering infront of your eyes, yet, its untouchable. anyway, i shoudlnt take about this anymore. its over. my life in that foundation have outshine all kind of memories, from the greatest to the worse. and i'll pray each and every day, i wont forget each and every moment that I have with all of you.

thanks my friend, you guys make my life awesome. :)