i still remember this post, exactly updated when i was in nilai, after committing no one would ever done for his bestfriend. i was lonely, i was hurt by own mistake and somehow, im gradually adopting. phobia on having and adding friend on my list, afraid, the cycle of life would be repeating.
and instead, i've moved myself . vehemently arguing about my thought. whether to have or not to have anymore friend. or, having a silent world with no one to talk to. spend the rest of my life without any companion, rather to have a very peculiar of life. which is-silent.
no, it didnt happen. for some reason, i do make new friends here. try to comfort myself with funny people around me. aroused with tremendous new knowledge, study harder for my paper and finally have a great and excellent result. yet, there's something missing. about a year ago, *(i couldnt believe im sill talking about this hopefully this will be the last time.) *cross finger.i had a bestfriend, that i believed could be someone that, i never thought so could left a tremendous impact on my life. i've met lodsa of people, yet this one... it was beautiful. i never thought i could hurt so bad just because of friend. the final bits left, only few memories that i accidentally deleted because of ass hole bill gate for creating "cut"-means-delete and paste. and somehow, and the final bits that i had, had gone altogether with the happy time i had with you.
and it will never comes back.
forgiving never been easy for u right? whether u realized or not *of course u dun, its already a year. and im still missing you :(. will you be friend like how we used to please?
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