just moving to different space, all the silent and the serenity. i've been waiting for this for a long time. sadly im still stuck in malaysia, worst im in subang. slowly killing myself with soring eyes and burnt my lung with 2 packs of 20 pieces of dunhill. damn, i spent 8.90*2=17.80 for 2 days just for the sake of temporary satisfaction damn.
i think its time for be to stop smoking, which i think its beyond impossible since i started smoking since i was 12, now and im already 19. yes do the math, its been 7 years i've been roasting my lungs with thousand pieces of cigarette. i never had any intention to stop, the joyness couldnt be de describe thru words, its tooooooooo... i know there are lodsa of people outhere hate me smoking. just...
i spent the whole day using broadband, without even considering aween, that dying to use broadband. been google-ling something new and fun to read, yet, nothing. i guess my brain started to melt down. i dun anything for the past few weeks, and its really boring. ughh.. i wish i can spin time faster and go gombak immediately.
perhaps im slowly changing myself from nothing to something. well at least to make me a whole new better person. i make sound judgement rather hasty-hush-judgement. and yes, to change, the process and the outcome are both significant. altering my ego, and try to knock down my egocentric that i've been holding firmly for a long time. yes its time to change,
i change to a better person. im not afraid of the transition anymore. im gonna be 20 and im gonna be really really good men. dun call me boy anymore. heheheeee ;p.
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