worthless.

after a while then only i've realized, its no worth missing someone that not even consider to miss you. i think worst when u started all the mess, thought its cool and wait to be cold. then only when i try to rectify everything, its just too late. and it slowly put more anger, after all its the only reason, i've been checking my msn, offline msg, my phone beeps, and at the end,no more answer. its no worth. its worthless, far from anything to be called worth.

well, at least im still trying to resemble all the memories that scattering around. the more i write the more i feel sorrow, and the more i feel guilty. and more more and more, it didnt turn like how i plan, yet everything like so fuck up. well, i wonder why? far from any concern i dun even consider to lower down my ego, though my first with daniel. yes, i have to admit, there were few parts where im guilty, yet, i dun even consider to ask for apology. and instead i've been shitting about to everyone that i know. sadly, i think what goes around comes around. i dun really believe in karma, because as far as i concern it never appeared in any books or material, well its hindus believe if im not mistaken. well, then , it happened. i guess everything that im going through due to the mistakes i did in my previous time. well, let see i can recall everyone that shitting?

well, i cant. just too much. too much of people i call animal. for sake of of my joke.

well, i guess its just to long, long enough for me to recall everything. so i guess forgetting will make my sin less??

nope.

anyway, some of the mistakes were made, so at least in the future, i would never repeat it again.

well,,....

history repeat itself.

so now, back to the main issue. after a while i've been thinking to shut this suffer.

well, its utterly my mistake. pardon me, i asked for apology for millions time. im forgiven not forgotten. well, you gonna remember for the asking the most apologies in ur life. yes, felicitation.

i think the best way, just follow with the flow. because one day, im gonna be okay, and forget everything. everything that happened before.

but after few months since that tragic tragedy, its still lingering on my mind. it just there. keep flowing and never failed. so how the hell could forget about it????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!

guess try to stop thinking?

yeah? how? u tell me.