meracau.

im trying me best to post something meaningful.
well, most of my post when i read it back,
its meaningless, and somehow i dun even understand.
well, i dun stick to original plan.
my ideas usually very very scattering
and its really hard for me to organize everything.

yes im lacking of everything.
perhaps i need to structure everything,
and i write accordingly.
but its hard dowh,
im not the cool pujangga the write everything with sincerity
ad fuck-cinating others reader.
heh?

sometimes i mean most of the time,
i dun even understand what i ramble about.
haish, this happened in everyday.
especially on exam. duh, when i get really high on answering the question.
shit thang happenend.
the first paragraphs oklah, with strong and valid tesis statement.
but the...... even i dun understand what the helllll i wrote.
well atleast my lecturer said, its better to show some effort?

i still consider on changing my program.
well, i was really fascinated about joining history.
yet, now no longer than.
i dun know what i wanna be in the 4 years.
of course i have to find my own on job,
stand by my own feet,
do everything by myself.

at least, if im enroll in law, my future will be more certain.
im a lawyer. heh? bolehke?

what im really afraid of, i never handle such obligation.
well, if anything given to me,
i'm gonna screw everything. EVERYTHING.
just like my writing.
eh its rhyme.

even back to matrix,
i cant even handle my group members.
well, most of them really rensposible-less.
some even gave me unacceptable reason, "jol aku tak reti guna computer"
sial x?

well, i guess i cant just left everything on takdir.
of course i have to strive everything, and plan everything.
i dun want to work in empire mall by the 24, well at least something that i can proud of myself. well, at least.

so what im gonna do?