rindu kau.

hantu breast said (1:00 am):
miss u


fmbabm@hotmail.com said (4:15 PM):
me too

could someone ever explained this to me?
aku sudah delete, block kau dari fb aku,
baru kau nak kata macam ni?

well, and the hell here is the keling part.

u've been ignoring me since i betrayed you.
and finally stop sending sms-es to each other.
u stop talking to me.
u stop sleeping beside me.
u stop shouting my name enthusiastically.
u stop asking for my help,
u stop asking for my rokok
u stop telling me everything.
and we stop singing.
and u show endless hatred to me.

and then u were trying to rectify everything.

kau ajak aku makan sama sama,
kau minta rokok aku semula
kau pinjam duit aku semula
dan kasut aku yang kau campak,
kau mintak semula.

aku ingat itu tanda kau maafkan aku.

no, i was completely wrong.
in the room, u make cynical body language.
yes, i was the nearest to you, and you pretend u dun see me.
whenever we walked by each other and ur gf beside you,
u make that cunt face,
that's indicating u hate me.

frankly, last day on final u texted me,
to have breakfast together.

kemudian hari.

the first night,
u came to my room.
and next whenever you with your friends,
u fucking ignore me.
u pretend u dun see me,
by the fucking fact, im standing next to you.
your eyes were straight point to me.
yes, when u drive, u can see me sitting on the bench alone.
u walked by, happily ignoring me.

the week later,
u came into my room.
the same topic and issue,
u've been asking me the same thing.
as if u dun have anything else to say.
and i wonder why?

the next week,
u asked for my help to do ur oral stuff.
i came back late purposely and happily.
u do have ur friends,
what the fuck mintak tolong aku?

yes i was really happy finally i get rid of my guiltiness!
i was really happy and can sleep without thinking of u.

and fuck on final week,
we passed by each other,
this time u asked me a simple question.
and i strain my emotion,
and bust into tears for no reason.

i text u,
u text me,
i left offline msg,
u replied.

u said its ok, forget it.
i thought forgetting you.
but no, u asked me to forget what i did.
as simple as that?

u know what friend?
i hate myself.
i fucking hate myself.

i miss u.
i hate u, because i cant help myself to hate me.
u know what, aku da jadi keling.